Monday, December 24, 2007

With the heaviest heart...

It is with much sadness that we say goodbye to Thomas' mom, Natalie, our Tutu. Natalie passed away Christmas Eve from complications that arose from her earlier surgery.

Our hearts are heavy with the sorrow of her loss but we rejoice in the knowledge that we will see her again in heaven. It has been a bittersweet Christmas as we celebrate our Savior's birth with the sadness of her absence. We had a collection of presents under our tree that she had sent us a couple of weeks ago and this morning as we opened them we felt the weight of the knowledge that these presents lovingly handpicked for us would be the last presents we would ever get from her.

It has been hard for Kai to understand but she has moments of undeniable wisdom that make us feel so small compared to her faith. She caught me crying (not that I have been good at hiding it) and told me not to be sad. She said that Tutu loved Jesus and God too much and she just couldn't stay here anymore. She said she loved them so much that she just had to go to heaven with them.

In the last year, Natalie had pursued a deeper and deeper relationship with God. She had absorbed God's word from a variety of avenues. I believe Kai is right. Her heart was so filled with the knowledge and understanding of His love that she just couldn't stay here one more second. We will miss her every day but rejoice in the knowledge that she is with Him forever. We are thankful that we can rest in the knowledge that we will see her again.

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